Well,
you know I really thank the Lord for those times where people comfort me and dig a cistern for me when I am in a valley of Baca.
Wait.. hahah... No la... Bertrand is not emo-ing. In fact I am brimming with a serene joy as I write this.
Thinking back, I look down upon the valley and see how many bridges and cisterns were built for my sake in the past and the guidance Hosea, Pastor Mark, Roland and my other leaders gave.
It is my privilege to help others who went through or are going the Valley of Baca.
I rejoice in the Lord and enjoy His blessings. At least with people who are in the valley of Baca, I can say I know to how you feel, for my footsteps can still be seen in the sand in that valley. I would like to help as long as you as you would like to share ya.... :D I rejoice in being able to share the burden with you, to share with you how God has pulled me out of Baca.
While reflecting after church camp, God spoke to me.
King David, despite being the greatest king of all, went through deeper Valley of Bacas then we actually think. Just recount his experiences trying to hide away from assailants in the country that he was told he was going tobe anionted king. Even as King, his own son Absalom staged a coup and David had to run out of the his land God had set him to care for. To make matters worse, his own son slept with 10 of his wives in a tent so that the Israelite people could see. Incest!!!
Imagine the pain, hurt, jealousy, sadness, contradiction, confusion that King David had to go through. Wow, but King David to this day is still respected as the greatest King of Israel.
Why do God allow people to go through the Valley of Baca?
One reason is to let your flesh die away and hence the Spirit can be in power.
(Read Job and 1 Cor 5. Note that Job was an upright man while the example in 1 Cor 5 shows is about a man who was doing evil. -- Both still need to go through Baca.)
A verse to encouragement:
1 Peter 5: 10
"10 But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you."
Joyful, joyful, out of Baca I come, declaring that Jesus lives and He is your everpresent help and saviour.
Happily,
Bertrand
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Dreams
I look out afar, wondering, thinking.
I sense something is missing.
Well, love my life now, I love God and His abundance.
More than I could have asked for as a lost lil boy 7 years ago.
Putting my thoughts into words has never been my strong point, but I am learning.
Maybe what I sense missing is a dissatisfaction?
I ask myself, what do I want to see? More salvations? More God's power?
Maybe its a start of a desire to find my true destiny and calling. I love my ministries now, I serve them in delight. However, I feel there is so much more and I feel that I am still called to something greater. I want to see it happen.
hmph... I am lost with this one.
Lord, in your time, in your arms.
I am still learning to build faith. Well, I guess God showed me that I still have not enough faith. I mean, God has been training me in faith. Well now I believe God demands my faith even when emotions go awry. Away with the flesh!
Bertrand
I sense something is missing.
Well, love my life now, I love God and His abundance.
More than I could have asked for as a lost lil boy 7 years ago.
Putting my thoughts into words has never been my strong point, but I am learning.
Maybe what I sense missing is a dissatisfaction?
I ask myself, what do I want to see? More salvations? More God's power?
Maybe its a start of a desire to find my true destiny and calling. I love my ministries now, I serve them in delight. However, I feel there is so much more and I feel that I am still called to something greater. I want to see it happen.
hmph... I am lost with this one.
Lord, in your time, in your arms.
I am still learning to build faith. Well, I guess God showed me that I still have not enough faith. I mean, God has been training me in faith. Well now I believe God demands my faith even when emotions go awry. Away with the flesh!
Bertrand
Monday, June 9, 2008
Woman!
Wow... I have just read the first chapter of What a MAN wants, what a WOMAN needs by Bishop Eddie Long and.....
I am beginning to better understand my role as a man and also understand a woman's role as a woman.
Seriously, Woman deserve so much more credit than society gives them. Their quiet spirit, poise and grace is what God created to be attractive about them, not how they dress up. Their spiritual warfare weapons are designed to be more powerful then men! These are biblical. Real cool!
I am beginning to better understand my role as a man and also understand a woman's role as a woman.
Seriously, Woman deserve so much more credit than society gives them. Their quiet spirit, poise and grace is what God created to be attractive about them, not how they dress up. Their spiritual warfare weapons are designed to be more powerful then men! These are biblical. Real cool!
WOW.
I think I am gonna be head over heels in love with a Kingdom Woman.
Haha
Bertrand
Monday, June 2, 2008
One Life, One Love
ONE LIFE, ONE LOVE
City Harvest Church
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD KNOW ME FROM THE
START
SET ME APART
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD PLACE ETERNITY INTO MY HEART
YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME
MORE THAN THIS WORLD COULD GIVE
MY PURPOSE IS FOUND IN YOU
ONE LIFE, I LAY AT YOUR ALTAR
ONE LOVE, I HAVE WITH YOU
TOUCH ME AGAIN
FILL ME AS YOU HOLD
MY OUTSTRETCHED HANDS
ONE WORD, YOU KNOW I WILL FOLLOW
ONE HEART, BROKEN TO YOU
USE ME AGAIN
YOUR MERCIES FOLLOW ME
FOR ALL MY DAYS
IN YOUR PRESENCE
IN YOUR POWER
HOLY SPIRIT, I SURRENDER
City Harvest Church
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD KNOW ME FROM THE
START
SET ME APART
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD PLACE ETERNITY INTO MY HEART
YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME
MORE THAN THIS WORLD COULD GIVE
MY PURPOSE IS FOUND IN YOU
ONE LIFE, I LAY AT YOUR ALTAR
ONE LOVE, I HAVE WITH YOU
TOUCH ME AGAIN
FILL ME AS YOU HOLD
MY OUTSTRETCHED HANDS
ONE WORD, YOU KNOW I WILL FOLLOW
ONE HEART, BROKEN TO YOU
USE ME AGAIN
YOUR MERCIES FOLLOW ME
FOR ALL MY DAYS
IN YOUR PRESENCE
IN YOUR POWER
HOLY SPIRIT, I SURRENDER
Monday, May 26, 2008
3rd post in 7 hrs
Wonder why I post so much. :p
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Qn: What are some of the most troublesome/repetitive administrative needs in CFC (YA/YM) today?
OKAY READERS.
I need your input. So kindly do reply by tagging on my tagboard on the right.
Qn: What are some of the most troublesome/repetitive administrative needs in CFC (YA/YM) today?
Lord Jesus, My everything
I must be on a roll. After Gurmit, after sunday's sermon on remembering our first love.
Here is a song by 98 degrees - My everything. One of my favs, cos the lyrics really talk to me. This song, dedicated and sung to Jesus, my first love.
The loneliness of nights alone.
I search for strength to carry on.
My every hope has seemed to die.
My eyes had no more tears to cry.
Then like the sun shinned from up above.
You surrounded me with your endless love.
And all the things I couldn't see.
Are now so clear to me.
CHORUS
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything.
Now all my hopes and all my dreams.
Are suddenly reality.
You've opened up my heart to feel.
A kind of love that's truly real.
A guiding light that'll never fade.
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade.
For the love you give it won't let go.
I hope you'll always know.
Chorus
Oh. You're the breath of life in me.
The only one that sets me free.
And you have made my soul complete for all time.
For all time.
Chorus
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything, oh my everything...
Here is a song by 98 degrees - My everything. One of my favs, cos the lyrics really talk to me. This song, dedicated and sung to Jesus, my first love.
The loneliness of nights alone.
I search for strength to carry on.
My every hope has seemed to die.
My eyes had no more tears to cry.
Then like the sun shinned from up above.
You surrounded me with your endless love.
And all the things I couldn't see.
Are now so clear to me.
CHORUS
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything.
Now all my hopes and all my dreams.
Are suddenly reality.
You've opened up my heart to feel.
A kind of love that's truly real.
A guiding light that'll never fade.
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade.
For the love you give it won't let go.
I hope you'll always know.
Chorus
Oh. You're the breath of life in me.
The only one that sets me free.
And you have made my soul complete for all time.
For all time.
Chorus
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything, oh my everything...
Lyrics from www.lyrics.net
Bertrand
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Bertrand's Heart Vault
Hi
You know...
Getting into this frenzy of brokeness and hunger, God is showing me areas of my life that I had locked away in my heart's secret vault. It never dawned on me that such issues would be hindrances to my state of 'brokeness' unto Jesus.
I guess this is a learning process, where God probes and we have to acknowledge our meekness and our weaknesses. It is only now I realise I am still immature in certain areas of my life. My heart is really.... uh.... my emotions drives me crazy. Wake up Berty!
These areas are the pretty sensitive areas of my life... Teaching my head the right thing was not enough. God wants my heart to have a 100% change. Hence, I am getting probed. Like Roland says, God is putting His finger there, digging out the problem.
Well, as the bible says,
"He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds correction gains understanding." - Proverbs 15:32
On a side note, ever noticed how some secular love songs could actually be sung unto the Lord?
Well here is one, an interlude or some sort by 98 degrees, lyrics adapted to sing unto Jesus.
You give me the moon at night,
You give me the stars to light my eyes.
You give me the sun to make just one more dawn,
So another day may come.
You gave me my heart and soul.
You'll be there to catch me when I fall.
When you'll ask me what I'll give to you,
Lord, I'll give it all...
:D
Bertrando Bertiando Berty Bert-Bert Bertrand
You know...
Getting into this frenzy of brokeness and hunger, God is showing me areas of my life that I had locked away in my heart's secret vault. It never dawned on me that such issues would be hindrances to my state of 'brokeness' unto Jesus.
I guess this is a learning process, where God probes and we have to acknowledge our meekness and our weaknesses. It is only now I realise I am still immature in certain areas of my life. My heart is really.... uh.... my emotions drives me crazy. Wake up Berty!
These areas are the pretty sensitive areas of my life... Teaching my head the right thing was not enough. God wants my heart to have a 100% change. Hence, I am getting probed. Like Roland says, God is putting His finger there, digging out the problem.
Well, as the bible says,
"He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds correction gains understanding." - Proverbs 15:32
On a side note, ever noticed how some secular love songs could actually be sung unto the Lord?
Well here is one, an interlude or some sort by 98 degrees, lyrics adapted to sing unto Jesus.
You give me the moon at night,
You give me the stars to light my eyes.
You give me the sun to make just one more dawn,
So another day may come.
You gave me my heart and soul.
You'll be there to catch me when I fall.
When you'll ask me what I'll give to you,
Lord, I'll give it all...
:D
Bertrando Bertiando Berty Bert-Bert Bertrand
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Humility and Progress
Another comment that I hope blesses you.
In this hustle and bustle, ups and downs of Christian life, there is a question that plagues me.
For example, if we prayed about having more patience, how do we know that we are patient enough? This applies to all areas of our life.
Well, I am more or less convinced already that the following answer is a good (biblical) gauge for us Christians to know whether we have made it or not.
I imagine soem people would be going 'huh?' The answer sounds oxymoronic. Haha..
Well let me explain.
Firstly, recall the verse:
Matthew 5: 3
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
Basically, as the verse mentions when we feel hungry/weak/desperate/poor in our spirit, we would continue to seek spiritual nourishment, and the reslu is we would gain the kingdom of heaven.
Likewise, in any area, recognising a hunger and our WEAKNESS in a certain area of our life, we would seek to grow in that area. When we think we have made it, we stop recognising our hunger and also stop recognising that we are still weak in that area and have much to learn.
This contributes to humility. However, do not be over-modest, for that is not good too. We can reconise improvement, but do not recognise ever reaching the ultimate goal in any area.
For when we think we have made it, we have failed.
In this hustle and bustle, ups and downs of Christian life, there is a question that plagues me.
Qn: HOW DO WE KNOW WHEN HAVE WE MADE IT?
For example, if we prayed about having more patience, how do we know that we are patient enough? This applies to all areas of our life.
Well, I am more or less convinced already that the following answer is a good (biblical) gauge for us Christians to know whether we have made it or not.
Ans: WHEN WE THINK AND BELIEVE WE HAD MADE IT, WE WOULD HAVE FAILED.
I imagine soem people would be going 'huh?' The answer sounds oxymoronic. Haha..
Well let me explain.
Firstly, recall the verse:
Matthew 5: 3
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
Basically, as the verse mentions when we feel hungry/weak/desperate/poor in our spirit, we would continue to seek spiritual nourishment, and the reslu is we would gain the kingdom of heaven.
Likewise, in any area, recognising a hunger and our WEAKNESS in a certain area of our life, we would seek to grow in that area. When we think we have made it, we stop recognising our hunger and also stop recognising that we are still weak in that area and have much to learn.
This contributes to humility. However, do not be over-modest, for that is not good too. We can reconise improvement, but do not recognise ever reaching the ultimate goal in any area.
For when we think we have made it, we have failed.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Rolling Random Rolls
haha....
Just some random tots.
Church is a real good place for young ones to grow huh. Sometimes I do wonder how I would be today if I didn't stop attending Emmanuel when I was Primary 1.
(haha.... I was 'born' into the church too... Not many ppl know this... Well, but for 10 years I was in the wilderness)
I concluded that I really wouldn't know. I have NO CLUE WHATSOEVER how I would have turned out. Better I guess?
However what shapes me now is partially due to my childhood trauma as the perpetual reject.
How God has pulled me out of my miry clay is A MIRACLE. I still remember how one declared to his friends his disdain and dislike for me, how another just declared not liking my face to my peers and to me as well... Pui! That was bad. Could feel the slight pinch just thinking about the past. Well, I think the reason why those happened was in part due to my character then anyway.
Well, God surely has changed me. God is definitely one who can change lives. Serious.
I see popular secondary school teens being surrounded by loving friends in church who loves them for no matter who they are. Wow. I should have heeded the still voice bugging me to go back to church all those years earlier. Anyway, I think teens should not take their friends for granted. Each and everyone of your friends, besties, pals, buddies, etc. are all treasures, pearls, diamonds, rubies, blessings from our Daddy God to you. God knows the importance of fellowship!
Well, a lil more of myself to anyone who reads this. (I wonder who reads anyway? haha...) I do hope my lil entries somehow encourages you in Christian faith.
I remember a verse God taught me after all those months of praying to God to teach me and help me make friends.
Proverbs 22:11
He who loves a pure heart and whose speech is gracious will have the king for his friend.
Yup well... speaks for itself doesn't it? I am still learning to live out this verse.
After teaching me to make friends, God also taught me how to interact with girls. (Okay... let me emphasize on INTERACT... Interact meaning talking and making friends and not hitting on or anything like that... haha... Just to get that part clear.) God is a good God. I was so worried that due to my lack of rapport with girls would mean I would not be able to go to Commissioning Ball with a date! Well.. Yay... I got a date in the end!!! Learnt a lot along the way too on how to be like around girls. Well... I am still learning and seriously am no pro at it. (Which reminds me... some guys actually have mastered the 'ART OF GETTING A GIRL' so girls do get to know a guy well first before entering a relationship with him. Thats advice from 'kor-kor bert'.)
Well... yar... haha... Yes you can pray about anything to Daddy God. Just make sure you do it with the right mindset and heart.
Bertrand
Just some random tots.
Church is a real good place for young ones to grow huh. Sometimes I do wonder how I would be today if I didn't stop attending Emmanuel when I was Primary 1.
(haha.... I was 'born' into the church too... Not many ppl know this... Well, but for 10 years I was in the wilderness)
I concluded that I really wouldn't know. I have NO CLUE WHATSOEVER how I would have turned out. Better I guess?
However what shapes me now is partially due to my childhood trauma as the perpetual reject.
How God has pulled me out of my miry clay is A MIRACLE. I still remember how one declared to his friends his disdain and dislike for me, how another just declared not liking my face to my peers and to me as well... Pui! That was bad. Could feel the slight pinch just thinking about the past. Well, I think the reason why those happened was in part due to my character then anyway.
Well, God surely has changed me. God is definitely one who can change lives. Serious.
I see popular secondary school teens being surrounded by loving friends in church who loves them for no matter who they are. Wow. I should have heeded the still voice bugging me to go back to church all those years earlier. Anyway, I think teens should not take their friends for granted. Each and everyone of your friends, besties, pals, buddies, etc. are all treasures, pearls, diamonds, rubies, blessings from our Daddy God to you. God knows the importance of fellowship!
Well, a lil more of myself to anyone who reads this. (I wonder who reads anyway? haha...) I do hope my lil entries somehow encourages you in Christian faith.
I remember a verse God taught me after all those months of praying to God to teach me and help me make friends.
Proverbs 22:11
He who loves a pure heart and whose speech is gracious will have the king for his friend.
Yup well... speaks for itself doesn't it? I am still learning to live out this verse.
After teaching me to make friends, God also taught me how to interact with girls. (Okay... let me emphasize on INTERACT... Interact meaning talking and making friends and not hitting on or anything like that... haha... Just to get that part clear.) God is a good God. I was so worried that due to my lack of rapport with girls would mean I would not be able to go to Commissioning Ball with a date! Well.. Yay... I got a date in the end!!! Learnt a lot along the way too on how to be like around girls. Well... I am still learning and seriously am no pro at it. (Which reminds me... some guys actually have mastered the 'ART OF GETTING A GIRL' so girls do get to know a guy well first before entering a relationship with him. Thats advice from 'kor-kor bert'.)
Well... yar... haha... Yes you can pray about anything to Daddy God. Just make sure you do it with the right mindset and heart.
Bertrand
Friday, May 2, 2008
The future
Lately I've been stressing over how am I gonna provide for myself and my family in future.
Also, I have been pretty stressed over living up to the Siow family line's illustrious careers and successes. Wonder if any other guy out there feels the same?
You know when you are young all these do not actually bug you. Now, they do. Probably it is the growing up process.
Well, I dunno how well I'll do in future and I dunno how financially abundant and stable I would be, but one thing I do know is, I want a happy family.
Poor families can be complete and happy
Rich families can be dysfunctional and in dispair.
Money does not equal happiness.
(P.S. I do not just say this hypotectically. I know families that fit into the above two categories.)
I guess, bringing up a joyful, loving, Godly family is what I really want. I trust God to provide for me my internship, my future occupation, my future finances. In God I put my trust.
Hebrews 13: 5.
yes you found the secret message.. hahahahhahahahaha
Also, I have been pretty stressed over living up to the Siow family line's illustrious careers and successes. Wonder if any other guy out there feels the same?
You know when you are young all these do not actually bug you. Now, they do. Probably it is the growing up process.
Well, I dunno how well I'll do in future and I dunno how financially abundant and stable I would be, but one thing I do know is, I want a happy family.
Poor families can be complete and happy
Rich families can be dysfunctional and in dispair.
Money does not equal happiness.
(P.S. I do not just say this hypotectically. I know families that fit into the above two categories.)
I guess, bringing up a joyful, loving, Godly family is what I really want. I trust God to provide for me my internship, my future occupation, my future finances. In God I put my trust.
Hebrews 13: 5.
yes you found the secret message.. hahahahhahahahaha
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Peace like a river
Whup!
Think I finally understand a lil.
You know how everytime something does not seem to go well (or even if it does go well), God wants you to learn something.
For my current predicament, I guess God does not want me to take blessings for granted. Only realised at 1am, that I am not making a concious effort to drive myself to serve God with whatever He has blessed me with.
It is not like I am not serving, however, to you readers out there, whatever you are blessed with does not just include your talents. It includes everything from your friends, your material goods, your influence, etc. Sometimes, we tend to become so used to them that we forget who is the creator and provider of ALL things.
Let's be good stewards of all things. Big and small. We should not steal from God. He gave it to us. It is for a reason.
Think I finally understand a lil.
You know how everytime something does not seem to go well (or even if it does go well), God wants you to learn something.
For my current predicament, I guess God does not want me to take blessings for granted. Only realised at 1am, that I am not making a concious effort to drive myself to serve God with whatever He has blessed me with.
It is not like I am not serving, however, to you readers out there, whatever you are blessed with does not just include your talents. It includes everything from your friends, your material goods, your influence, etc. Sometimes, we tend to become so used to them that we forget who is the creator and provider of ALL things.
Let's be good stewards of all things. Big and small. We should not steal from God. He gave it to us. It is for a reason.
Friday, April 25, 2008
"It ain't just a dance, its a lifestyle"
Woohoo...
"It ain't just a dance, its a lifestyle" - that old retired motto.
The thought exiting from the bboy realm quietly as I age was on my mind in the recent months. Well, as God so had it, there is a twist in my ministry and now I gotta get my skills up to par again. Woot! To serve!
Lord, Whatever it is, Never let me go, Never let me forget it is you who gave me this gift and opportunity and that you are the one who is in control of it all.
"It ain't just a dance, its a lifestyle" - that old retired motto.
The thought exiting from the bboy realm quietly as I age was on my mind in the recent months. Well, as God so had it, there is a twist in my ministry and now I gotta get my skills up to par again. Woot! To serve!
Lord, Whatever it is, Never let me go, Never let me forget it is you who gave me this gift and opportunity and that you are the one who is in control of it all.
haha... I think in a few years I will be a lil old to be called b-boy? B-man? B-uncle?
Monday, March 24, 2008
errr...
A leopard cannot change its spots? Nah... Bible never said so. Change occurs when u r willing to be changed by God. Still, no matter how hard I try, guess some things just don't change so quickly. I really dread the unspoken comparisons. I always asked you Lord, why like that?
Still. It is through weakness that God can work.
I guess its probably easier for the weak to learn how to depend on God than the strong? I dunno. I do know bad memories and experiences have life lessons to learn.
FIGHT IT BERTRAND!!! THIS IS WAR.
Still. It is through weakness that God can work.
I guess its probably easier for the weak to learn how to depend on God than the strong? I dunno. I do know bad memories and experiences have life lessons to learn.
FIGHT IT BERTRAND!!! THIS IS WAR.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Everyone's different, everyone's unique, a precious lil treat.
Everyone's different, Everyone's unique, A precious little treat.
You know... God is so amazingHe created everyone so differently. No too people are the same. Not just in looks, but all differ in character as well.
Well...
However, I guess there are some people who will be your class 'aliens' or your cliques' 'ewww...'
You know... like hello.... I dun like hanging out with them! haha *you're probably thinking of someone like that now*
Well perhaps lets all change our perspective, see them as God's children. Love them. Yes It isn't easy. But... Imagine u were in their shoes. How would you feel?
Evenagelism is through love for God and love for God's people.
Let us all love today. Shine the light of Christ even aound those you would like to avoid. Make someone's world a little brighter by being a light.
Bertrand
P.S. I don't preach on my blog all the time haha.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
God is always good
Sometimes, things go wrong. But, God allowed that... Why?
We have to learn from mistakes. Instead of indulging in self-pity, you can start to correcting your flaws and weaknesses.
Thank you for your revelation God. I'll change.
Bertrand
We have to learn from mistakes. Instead of indulging in self-pity, you can start to correcting your flaws and weaknesses.
Thank you for your revelation God. I'll change.
Bertrand
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Rumbleroad
The flesh and spirit war is always evident, especially when u wanna stand up for God.
God I pray.. Help me.
Arrgh
Okay... I think I should blog my blessings more often.
Else you guys will think I am emo.
K... God is always so good, so soveriegn. I did well for one test, but not so good in another. I thank God for His blessings, and also still He leaves me the test results as a reminder, that I still need to be humble and study hard, and not take His blessings for granted!!! Whoop!
Bertrand
God I pray.. Help me.
Arrgh
Okay... I think I should blog my blessings more often.
Else you guys will think I am emo.
K... God is always so good, so soveriegn. I did well for one test, but not so good in another. I thank God for His blessings, and also still He leaves me the test results as a reminder, that I still need to be humble and study hard, and not take His blessings for granted!!! Whoop!
Bertrand
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Reflection
I had just started chatting to God. (or sometimes I think I'm a soliloquy, Hey, but I know God listens and answers me in His own way!)
I realised.
Just how much obedience Jesus had.
We all know Jesus died for us, because of His immense love for mankind.
Well... Before just before Jesus died...
"30When he had received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. " John 19: 30
Jesus had given up his spirit.
Jesus was obedient in heart and flesh to die for our sins, and was also obedient to give God his Spirit.
Question: Are we obedient in both flesh (our actions) and our heart (our attitudes) and our spirit (our life --> our direction, our purpose for living)
Sometimes we may lack one of these. Obedience in one aspect does not cover for the obedience in another aspect. We need obedience in flesh, heart and spirit.
Bertrand
I realised.
Just how much obedience Jesus had.
We all know Jesus died for us, because of His immense love for mankind.
Well... Before just before Jesus died...
"30When he had received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. " John 19: 30
Jesus had given up his spirit.
Jesus was obedient in heart and flesh to die for our sins, and was also obedient to give God his Spirit.
Question: Are we obedient in both flesh (our actions) and our heart (our attitudes) and our spirit (our life --> our direction, our purpose for living)
Sometimes we may lack one of these. Obedience in one aspect does not cover for the obedience in another aspect. We need obedience in flesh, heart and spirit.
Bertrand
Friday, February 29, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Where your heart is... there your treasure will be
I was just on the bus home, reflecting. Finally realising how off I was. My heart has been seeking other things. I have been chasing after school issues, relationship and friend issues, computer game issues, etc. Finally, a stark realisation came upon me... How long has it been? When was the last time since my heart was focused on seeking God alone and not my own selfish interests? I know, roughly, during the times where my focus was right and I was constantly correcting my life's focus, God made His miracles and I was probably the most 'productive' and grew the most then. I remember my 1st Semester in school was the best time, especially after being fired up by the 2 Karen trips. What happened? That did. Now I say I recovered, but am I still in its wake? Lord, aren't I out yet? Or is it harder than it seems?
Well... Thank you Lord always, for being there for me. The sweetness of feeling close to you, the lingering in your presence... Lord I just want you. I dunno what my future holds. I trust you and I just wanna love you now. Correct my heart where it errs. Mercy, I pray and I know you care.
Well... Thank you Lord always, for being there for me. The sweetness of feeling close to you, the lingering in your presence... Lord I just want you. I dunno what my future holds. I trust you and I just wanna love you now. Correct my heart where it errs. Mercy, I pray and I know you care.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
A brief look at the past.
I had a chance to look at the past yesterday. Leaves me wondering was I closer to God before? Was I more on fire before? Or am I a better Christian today? Never imagined how God would allow me to have a scar such as that... I used to idealised having a clean spotless slate. However, I know God only has plans that are for good for me. Well... I can gladly say I am finally rid of all physical remembrance of the past and ready to live without being bothered by it anymore.
Oleh!!
Bertrand
Oleh!!
Bertrand
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