You know, we are called to abundant life, and indeed God has came to bring it abundantly!
One thing I have been learning: Abundance tarries at times.
Think of Hannah in 1 Samuel.
For years she was barren, without a child. Childless and being provoked by Penninah, she was desperatea and bitter, and began to lose her sense of worth and sense of competence.
Finally, she prayed that if God gave her a child, she promised God she would give the child back to God for His purposes! She prayed to teh point that Eli though she was drunk. Think about this: Year after year, she went to the temple to ask God for a child. She coud have well prayed this prayer before many times. But what was the difference now?
Answer: We know the God tests the heart. This time, Hannah's heart was different. After several years of barreness, her heart had changed such that when God saw her heart and attitude, it was a done deal. Her motives for asking for a child was now pure. Blessed are the pure in heart, for they shall see God.
No longer was she asking for the wrong motives. She was no longer asking for a child because of the bitterness she felt over provocation by Penninah. No longer was she asking for a child to satisfy her self-worth.
Hannah was asking for a child for the sake of dedicating this child to God, so that she might contribute to the building of His Kingdom, His Glory.
Thing is, Hannah might had prayed that before years ago. But this time, its not just the words that God heard, but God saw her pure heart. Hannah finally realised (not just in knowledge, but in her heart) that she had to dedicate her child back to God, for His glory.
Wow. Lessons we can learn here:
1) Abundance tarries sometimes, because God wants to purify our heart. Jesus came to bring abundant life and He will fulfil His promise, for He is faithful. Yet God will cleanse and purify our motives. We can only guess what our heart is like, for our hearts are deceptive. God sees the true heart. It takes a time of barreness for the dross of our heart, which we are blinded to, to be revealed.
2) We should not judge another if we are uncomfortable with the way they worship, pray, etc. (i.e. they appear 'drunk' to you) You do not know what they had went through!
3) Our sense of worth, sense of belonging, sense of purpose and sense of competence has got to firmly set in God alone, not in abundance or blessings, not in others, not in material goods.
Saturday, November 29, 2008
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
WAHH! Finally I update
Woohoo.
You know, I guess everyone is looking for something deep down in the core of our beings.
Bodaciously Branded.
Bertrand.
You know, I guess everyone is looking for something deep down in the core of our beings.
Bodaciously Branded.
Bertrand.
Wednesday, October 8, 2008
Growl
Gentle in Spirit,
Ferocity in Service,
Lacking in Nothing,
Excellence in Attitude,
Freedom from Mammon Perfectionism,
God's blessing and abundance in Full.
Ferocity in Service,
Lacking in Nothing,
Excellence in Attitude,
Freedom from Mammon Perfectionism,
God's blessing and abundance in Full.
Wednesday, October 1, 2008
Back
Paul mentioned war within himself, between the flesh and the spirit.
Having a good sense of discerment between what is of the flesh and what is of teh spirit is important.
Humbling ourselves before God and seeking His face, there He will help you to find out what is of the flesh and should be weeded out.
The spirit is strong, but the flesh is weak, and like a gangreneous part of your body, the flesh is the one that brings you torment and sin. Sin can hide in subtlety.
God will help all to let their flesh die, so that the spirit might reign. If we just surrender ourselves to him, in everything.
Not self-seeking, but God-seeking. God is moving!
God is completing a good work in me, and you as well reader.
Praise God!
Having a good sense of discerment between what is of the flesh and what is of teh spirit is important.
Humbling ourselves before God and seeking His face, there He will help you to find out what is of the flesh and should be weeded out.
The spirit is strong, but the flesh is weak, and like a gangreneous part of your body, the flesh is the one that brings you torment and sin. Sin can hide in subtlety.
God will help all to let their flesh die, so that the spirit might reign. If we just surrender ourselves to him, in everything.
Not self-seeking, but God-seeking. God is moving!
God is completing a good work in me, and you as well reader.
Praise God!
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Wild - The - Ness
Was talking to God yesterday as I strolled back to my place after jogging.
Learnt practically and experientially a few truths/revelations:
Every wilderness experience is not actually very 'fun' to be in, but as you go through it and finally 'graduate' it, you come to a point where u emerge different, God who Himself will complete/restore and make you what you ought to be, establish and ground you securely, and strengthen, and place you on a firm foundation.
I think I am starting to grasp the verse in Eccelesiastes 1: 2 a lil better. Go check it yourself.
Telling God to "relax a bit la" in orchestrating the wilderness experience for me is really foolish as He is completing a good work in me.
I realise there is a difference in between true joy in the Lord and joy from what is around you and what you have. Imagine Peter, who still sings praises from his prison cell, when everything doesn't go well, Peter still could find the joy.
Faith is truely tested when circumstances do not go your way. When things go well, is your faith in God only? Or do you have faith in your good circumstances. Hard to say till God reveals it.
Bertrand
Learnt practically and experientially a few truths/revelations:
Every wilderness experience is not actually very 'fun' to be in, but as you go through it and finally 'graduate' it, you come to a point where u emerge different, God who Himself will complete/restore and make you what you ought to be, establish and ground you securely, and strengthen, and place you on a firm foundation.
I think I am starting to grasp the verse in Eccelesiastes 1: 2 a lil better. Go check it yourself.
Telling God to "relax a bit la" in orchestrating the wilderness experience for me is really foolish as He is completing a good work in me.
I realise there is a difference in between true joy in the Lord and joy from what is around you and what you have. Imagine Peter, who still sings praises from his prison cell, when everything doesn't go well, Peter still could find the joy.
Faith is truely tested when circumstances do not go your way. When things go well, is your faith in God only? Or do you have faith in your good circumstances. Hard to say till God reveals it.
Bertrand
I'm in lecture
Woohoo...
Blog hopping has yielded its fruits:
Sean's bloggie says that we should not be stuck in old/past seasons.
Must be a confirmation. haha...
Well btw, who are my secret blog readers? Well this blog is kinda black and dull
Think I am gonna give it a facelift.
hmm... somethots
School term is starting, got something to look forward to.
haha.
People are gonna stone me
I am not refering to homework and study, as I believe many people think so. :p
haha.
I can't wait to see my friends again.
To my MSE friends:
Arrgh... Been really busy. Can't wait to see you all again. Serious. We got lotsa time to catch up next sem considering we will be together in school like most of the day each week. :D haha.
To my fellow Churchies:
So glad to get to some of you better this hols. haha... Guess to chat wif u all during school days would be over msn/phone. Those wif 3 day or 4 day school weeks, resist the temptation to gloat over my 5 day, 9am to 5pm, school weeks. Those I am referring to u know who u r. *bish bish* Beat your head if u laugh at me. Will find time to call u guys since we won't have time to catch up much in chuch wif our ususal running around in our busy-ness in the weekends.
To my Dad (the human one, if u r reading this):
Yes I am looking forward to you taking leave. Haha... Thank you for allowing me to have the car for those days this coming sem!!! Wahh hahaha.....
Bertrand
Blog hopping has yielded its fruits:
Sean's bloggie says that we should not be stuck in old/past seasons.
Must be a confirmation. haha...
Well btw, who are my secret blog readers? Well this blog is kinda black and dull
Think I am gonna give it a facelift.
hmm... somethots
School term is starting, got something to look forward to.
haha.
People are gonna stone me
I am not refering to homework and study, as I believe many people think so. :p
haha.
I can't wait to see my friends again.
To my MSE friends:
Arrgh... Been really busy. Can't wait to see you all again. Serious. We got lotsa time to catch up next sem considering we will be together in school like most of the day each week. :D haha.
To my fellow Churchies:
So glad to get to some of you better this hols. haha... Guess to chat wif u all during school days would be over msn/phone. Those wif 3 day or 4 day school weeks, resist the temptation to gloat over my 5 day, 9am to 5pm, school weeks. Those I am referring to u know who u r. *bish bish* Beat your head if u laugh at me. Will find time to call u guys since we won't have time to catch up much in chuch wif our ususal running around in our busy-ness in the weekends.
To my Dad (the human one, if u r reading this):
Yes I am looking forward to you taking leave. Haha... Thank you for allowing me to have the car for those days this coming sem!!! Wahh hahaha.....
Bertrand
Friday, July 25, 2008
New insert!
Wha ha ha...
Just some random comments:
Again I notice how people like to put up an image that they are happy and joyful all the time when in fact they are not. Saying that, I do not mean there are no truly happy people in the world. Just that there are those who are not happy, but like to put up a front of joy.
Again I recall Ecclesiastes 7: 14
" On a good day, enjoy yourself;
On a bad day, examine your conscience.
God arranges for both kinds of days
So that we won't take anything for granted " (Msg)
God arranges for good days and bad days, so that we, His children will not take anything for granted. Hard to imagine how spiritual heavy weights such as Reinhard Bonnke and Benny Hinn have bad days, but that is true.
Again I think what I learnt during QT yesterday.
Apparently, the first two commandments:
'Do not worship and other God.' and 'Do not build for yourself any graven images.'
cover a vast amount of things, tangible and intangible.
Even for Christians, joy, peace and love can become a graven image, an emotional idol you chase after. Christians are supposed to be God chasers and God worshippers, rain or shine, joyful or remorseful, peaceful or in pain, feeling loved by others or rejected by others.
Joy, peace and love are what God gives as His gracious gift to His children because He loves us. Yet, they are not what we should be chasing after.
Again I think how we sometimes can be judgemental and short-sighted. We see the sin or the weakness, but never understanding or seeking why it is there. Deep down these are all linked to a single source, a longing in an area(s) of their souls which needs God to come in. Nothing that perfect love cannot do!
Just some random comments:
Again I notice how people like to put up an image that they are happy and joyful all the time when in fact they are not. Saying that, I do not mean there are no truly happy people in the world. Just that there are those who are not happy, but like to put up a front of joy.
Again I recall Ecclesiastes 7: 14
" On a good day, enjoy yourself;
On a bad day, examine your conscience.
God arranges for both kinds of days
So that we won't take anything for granted " (Msg)
God arranges for good days and bad days, so that we, His children will not take anything for granted. Hard to imagine how spiritual heavy weights such as Reinhard Bonnke and Benny Hinn have bad days, but that is true.
Again I think what I learnt during QT yesterday.
Apparently, the first two commandments:
'Do not worship and other God.' and 'Do not build for yourself any graven images.'
cover a vast amount of things, tangible and intangible.
Even for Christians, joy, peace and love can become a graven image, an emotional idol you chase after. Christians are supposed to be God chasers and God worshippers, rain or shine, joyful or remorseful, peaceful or in pain, feeling loved by others or rejected by others.
Joy, peace and love are what God gives as His gracious gift to His children because He loves us. Yet, they are not what we should be chasing after.
Again I think how we sometimes can be judgemental and short-sighted. We see the sin or the weakness, but never understanding or seeking why it is there. Deep down these are all linked to a single source, a longing in an area(s) of their souls which needs God to come in. Nothing that perfect love cannot do!
Friday, July 11, 2008
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Psalm 6 - Prayer for Mercy in Time of Trouble.
For the choir director; with stringed instruments, upon an eight-string lyre. A Psalm of David.
1O LORD, do not rebuke me in Your anger,
Nor chasten me in Your wrath.
2Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am pining away;
Heal me, O LORD, for my bones are dismayed.
3And my soul is greatly dismayed;
But You, O LORD--how long?
4Return, O LORD, rescue my soul;
Save me because of Your lovingkindness.
5For there is no mention of You in death;
In Sheol who will give You thanks?
6I am weary with my sighing;
Every night I make my bed swim,
I dissolve my couch with my tears.
7My eye has wasted away with grief;
It has become old because of all my adversaries.
8Depart from me, all you who do iniquity,
For the LORD has heard the voice of my weeping.
9The LORD has heard my supplication,
The LORD receives my prayer.
10All my enemies will be ashamed and greatly dismayed;
They shall turn back, they will suddenly be ashamed.
Well... I am posting my QT up here today, with reference to the Maxwell Leadership Bible:
Observation (in General):
King David wrote many songs, directed unto God. Many songs were about his own affliction and his cry for God to deliver him. David was a man after God's own heart and was not afraid to communicate (or sing) and reveal his emotions or weaknesses.
"The Leader's Humanity: Don't Hide it.
Even as King of Israel, he (David) declared his fears, his anxieties, and his ambitions. Good leaders know how to balance transparency with being an example. Good leaders feel secure enough to be vulnerable" - Maxwell Leadership Bible, commentary on Psalms 6
Application:
People (as especially the men) often think being tough means that they are not easily emotionally effected (or at least they should appear that way.) Hence comes the whole macho mumbo jumbo. For example, I learnt during my NCC days: 'Real men don't cry!' Haha... If that is true, real men are abnormal. Men often hide their emotions and weaknesses from others fearing that others might 'pity' them or see them as 'weak'
However, the KING OF ISRAEL was not afraid to reveal his emotions and weakness. We can see this frm v2, v3 and so on.
2Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am pining away;
Heal me, O LORD, for my bones are dismayed.
3And my soul is greatly dismayed;
But You, O LORD--how long?
He did so and balanced it with the way he walked his life's journey as an example. King David was transparent about his griefs, but always trusted the Lord and his actions and words portrayed his trust in the Lord. This was the example King David showed to his men. We can see this from v9 and v10.
"9The LORD has heard my supplication,
The LORD receives my prayer.
10All my enemies will be ashamed and greatly dismayed;
They shall turn back, they will suddenly be ashamed."
Men need to know: being vulnerable is not weakness, but
(Vulnerability of weaknesses + true faith in the Lord) are two traits that a Kingdom man will have and the Kingdom man's strength is not of his, but of the Lord's.
The greatest man to show vulnerability is Jesus, as He was willing to die on the cross in front of EVERYONE, not in a closed room. Jesus, although He was sinless and was equal to God, Jesus was willing to be vulnerable in the flesh (to be crucified). Jesus never lost faith in His father God and walked in obedience to be crucified.
Prayer:
Lord, help me learn to be open and vulnerable as a leader. Help me learn to be a Kingdom man. Help me learn to be a man after your own heart, with faith and trust in You and yet secure enough to reveal my weaknesses. Lord, may this little devotion bless those who read it. Give them a rhema word as well Lord. Amen.
1O LORD, do not rebuke me in Your anger,
Nor chasten me in Your wrath.
2Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am pining away;
Heal me, O LORD, for my bones are dismayed.
3And my soul is greatly dismayed;
But You, O LORD--how long?
4Return, O LORD, rescue my soul;
Save me because of Your lovingkindness.
5For there is no mention of You in death;
In Sheol who will give You thanks?
6I am weary with my sighing;
Every night I make my bed swim,
I dissolve my couch with my tears.
7My eye has wasted away with grief;
It has become old because of all my adversaries.
8Depart from me, all you who do iniquity,
For the LORD has heard the voice of my weeping.
9The LORD has heard my supplication,
The LORD receives my prayer.
10All my enemies will be ashamed and greatly dismayed;
They shall turn back, they will suddenly be ashamed.
Well... I am posting my QT up here today, with reference to the Maxwell Leadership Bible:
Observation (in General):
King David wrote many songs, directed unto God. Many songs were about his own affliction and his cry for God to deliver him. David was a man after God's own heart and was not afraid to communicate (or sing) and reveal his emotions or weaknesses.
"The Leader's Humanity: Don't Hide it.
Even as King of Israel, he (David) declared his fears, his anxieties, and his ambitions. Good leaders know how to balance transparency with being an example. Good leaders feel secure enough to be vulnerable" - Maxwell Leadership Bible, commentary on Psalms 6
Application:
People (as especially the men) often think being tough means that they are not easily emotionally effected (or at least they should appear that way.) Hence comes the whole macho mumbo jumbo. For example, I learnt during my NCC days: 'Real men don't cry!' Haha... If that is true, real men are abnormal. Men often hide their emotions and weaknesses from others fearing that others might 'pity' them or see them as 'weak'
However, the KING OF ISRAEL was not afraid to reveal his emotions and weakness. We can see this frm v2, v3 and so on.
2Be gracious to me, O LORD, for I am pining away;
Heal me, O LORD, for my bones are dismayed.
3And my soul is greatly dismayed;
But You, O LORD--how long?
He did so and balanced it with the way he walked his life's journey as an example. King David was transparent about his griefs, but always trusted the Lord and his actions and words portrayed his trust in the Lord. This was the example King David showed to his men. We can see this from v9 and v10.
"9The LORD has heard my supplication,
The LORD receives my prayer.
10All my enemies will be ashamed and greatly dismayed;
They shall turn back, they will suddenly be ashamed."
Men need to know: being vulnerable is not weakness, but
(Vulnerability of weaknesses + true faith in the Lord) are two traits that a Kingdom man will have and the Kingdom man's strength is not of his, but of the Lord's.
The greatest man to show vulnerability is Jesus, as He was willing to die on the cross in front of EVERYONE, not in a closed room. Jesus, although He was sinless and was equal to God, Jesus was willing to be vulnerable in the flesh (to be crucified). Jesus never lost faith in His father God and walked in obedience to be crucified.
Prayer:
Lord, help me learn to be open and vulnerable as a leader. Help me learn to be a Kingdom man. Help me learn to be a man after your own heart, with faith and trust in You and yet secure enough to reveal my weaknesses. Lord, may this little devotion bless those who read it. Give them a rhema word as well Lord. Amen.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Valley of Baca
Well,
you know I really thank the Lord for those times where people comfort me and dig a cistern for me when I am in a valley of Baca.
Wait.. hahah... No la... Bertrand is not emo-ing. In fact I am brimming with a serene joy as I write this.
Thinking back, I look down upon the valley and see how many bridges and cisterns were built for my sake in the past and the guidance Hosea, Pastor Mark, Roland and my other leaders gave.
It is my privilege to help others who went through or are going the Valley of Baca.
I rejoice in the Lord and enjoy His blessings. At least with people who are in the valley of Baca, I can say I know to how you feel, for my footsteps can still be seen in the sand in that valley. I would like to help as long as you as you would like to share ya.... :D I rejoice in being able to share the burden with you, to share with you how God has pulled me out of Baca.
While reflecting after church camp, God spoke to me.
King David, despite being the greatest king of all, went through deeper Valley of Bacas then we actually think. Just recount his experiences trying to hide away from assailants in the country that he was told he was going tobe anionted king. Even as King, his own son Absalom staged a coup and David had to run out of the his land God had set him to care for. To make matters worse, his own son slept with 10 of his wives in a tent so that the Israelite people could see. Incest!!!
Imagine the pain, hurt, jealousy, sadness, contradiction, confusion that King David had to go through. Wow, but King David to this day is still respected as the greatest King of Israel.
Why do God allow people to go through the Valley of Baca?
One reason is to let your flesh die away and hence the Spirit can be in power.
(Read Job and 1 Cor 5. Note that Job was an upright man while the example in 1 Cor 5 shows is about a man who was doing evil. -- Both still need to go through Baca.)
A verse to encouragement:
1 Peter 5: 10
"10 But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you."
Joyful, joyful, out of Baca I come, declaring that Jesus lives and He is your everpresent help and saviour.
Happily,
Bertrand
you know I really thank the Lord for those times where people comfort me and dig a cistern for me when I am in a valley of Baca.
Wait.. hahah... No la... Bertrand is not emo-ing. In fact I am brimming with a serene joy as I write this.
Thinking back, I look down upon the valley and see how many bridges and cisterns were built for my sake in the past and the guidance Hosea, Pastor Mark, Roland and my other leaders gave.
It is my privilege to help others who went through or are going the Valley of Baca.
I rejoice in the Lord and enjoy His blessings. At least with people who are in the valley of Baca, I can say I know to how you feel, for my footsteps can still be seen in the sand in that valley. I would like to help as long as you as you would like to share ya.... :D I rejoice in being able to share the burden with you, to share with you how God has pulled me out of Baca.
While reflecting after church camp, God spoke to me.
King David, despite being the greatest king of all, went through deeper Valley of Bacas then we actually think. Just recount his experiences trying to hide away from assailants in the country that he was told he was going tobe anionted king. Even as King, his own son Absalom staged a coup and David had to run out of the his land God had set him to care for. To make matters worse, his own son slept with 10 of his wives in a tent so that the Israelite people could see. Incest!!!
Imagine the pain, hurt, jealousy, sadness, contradiction, confusion that King David had to go through. Wow, but King David to this day is still respected as the greatest King of Israel.
Why do God allow people to go through the Valley of Baca?
One reason is to let your flesh die away and hence the Spirit can be in power.
(Read Job and 1 Cor 5. Note that Job was an upright man while the example in 1 Cor 5 shows is about a man who was doing evil. -- Both still need to go through Baca.)
A verse to encouragement:
1 Peter 5: 10
"10 But may the God of all grace, who called us to His eternal glory by Christ Jesus, after you have suffered a while, perfect, establish, strengthen, and settle you."
Joyful, joyful, out of Baca I come, declaring that Jesus lives and He is your everpresent help and saviour.
Happily,
Bertrand
Dreams
I look out afar, wondering, thinking.
I sense something is missing.
Well, love my life now, I love God and His abundance.
More than I could have asked for as a lost lil boy 7 years ago.
Putting my thoughts into words has never been my strong point, but I am learning.
Maybe what I sense missing is a dissatisfaction?
I ask myself, what do I want to see? More salvations? More God's power?
Maybe its a start of a desire to find my true destiny and calling. I love my ministries now, I serve them in delight. However, I feel there is so much more and I feel that I am still called to something greater. I want to see it happen.
hmph... I am lost with this one.
Lord, in your time, in your arms.
I am still learning to build faith. Well, I guess God showed me that I still have not enough faith. I mean, God has been training me in faith. Well now I believe God demands my faith even when emotions go awry. Away with the flesh!
Bertrand
I sense something is missing.
Well, love my life now, I love God and His abundance.
More than I could have asked for as a lost lil boy 7 years ago.
Putting my thoughts into words has never been my strong point, but I am learning.
Maybe what I sense missing is a dissatisfaction?
I ask myself, what do I want to see? More salvations? More God's power?
Maybe its a start of a desire to find my true destiny and calling. I love my ministries now, I serve them in delight. However, I feel there is so much more and I feel that I am still called to something greater. I want to see it happen.
hmph... I am lost with this one.
Lord, in your time, in your arms.
I am still learning to build faith. Well, I guess God showed me that I still have not enough faith. I mean, God has been training me in faith. Well now I believe God demands my faith even when emotions go awry. Away with the flesh!
Bertrand
Monday, June 9, 2008
Woman!
Wow... I have just read the first chapter of What a MAN wants, what a WOMAN needs by Bishop Eddie Long and.....
I am beginning to better understand my role as a man and also understand a woman's role as a woman.
Seriously, Woman deserve so much more credit than society gives them. Their quiet spirit, poise and grace is what God created to be attractive about them, not how they dress up. Their spiritual warfare weapons are designed to be more powerful then men! These are biblical. Real cool!
I am beginning to better understand my role as a man and also understand a woman's role as a woman.
Seriously, Woman deserve so much more credit than society gives them. Their quiet spirit, poise and grace is what God created to be attractive about them, not how they dress up. Their spiritual warfare weapons are designed to be more powerful then men! These are biblical. Real cool!
WOW.
I think I am gonna be head over heels in love with a Kingdom Woman.
Haha
Bertrand
Monday, June 2, 2008
One Life, One Love
ONE LIFE, ONE LOVE
City Harvest Church
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD KNOW ME FROM THE
START
SET ME APART
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD PLACE ETERNITY INTO MY HEART
YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME
MORE THAN THIS WORLD COULD GIVE
MY PURPOSE IS FOUND IN YOU
ONE LIFE, I LAY AT YOUR ALTAR
ONE LOVE, I HAVE WITH YOU
TOUCH ME AGAIN
FILL ME AS YOU HOLD
MY OUTSTRETCHED HANDS
ONE WORD, YOU KNOW I WILL FOLLOW
ONE HEART, BROKEN TO YOU
USE ME AGAIN
YOUR MERCIES FOLLOW ME
FOR ALL MY DAYS
IN YOUR PRESENCE
IN YOUR POWER
HOLY SPIRIT, I SURRENDER
City Harvest Church
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD KNOW ME FROM THE
START
SET ME APART
WHO AM I
THAT YOU WOULD PLACE ETERNITY INTO MY HEART
YOU HAVE GIVEN TO ME
MORE THAN THIS WORLD COULD GIVE
MY PURPOSE IS FOUND IN YOU
ONE LIFE, I LAY AT YOUR ALTAR
ONE LOVE, I HAVE WITH YOU
TOUCH ME AGAIN
FILL ME AS YOU HOLD
MY OUTSTRETCHED HANDS
ONE WORD, YOU KNOW I WILL FOLLOW
ONE HEART, BROKEN TO YOU
USE ME AGAIN
YOUR MERCIES FOLLOW ME
FOR ALL MY DAYS
IN YOUR PRESENCE
IN YOUR POWER
HOLY SPIRIT, I SURRENDER
Monday, May 26, 2008
3rd post in 7 hrs
Wonder why I post so much. :p
OKAY READERS.
I need your input. So kindly do reply by tagging on my tagboard on the right.
Qn: What are some of the most troublesome/repetitive administrative needs in CFC (YA/YM) today?
OKAY READERS.
I need your input. So kindly do reply by tagging on my tagboard on the right.
Qn: What are some of the most troublesome/repetitive administrative needs in CFC (YA/YM) today?
Lord Jesus, My everything
I must be on a roll. After Gurmit, after sunday's sermon on remembering our first love.
Here is a song by 98 degrees - My everything. One of my favs, cos the lyrics really talk to me. This song, dedicated and sung to Jesus, my first love.
The loneliness of nights alone.
I search for strength to carry on.
My every hope has seemed to die.
My eyes had no more tears to cry.
Then like the sun shinned from up above.
You surrounded me with your endless love.
And all the things I couldn't see.
Are now so clear to me.
CHORUS
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything.
Now all my hopes and all my dreams.
Are suddenly reality.
You've opened up my heart to feel.
A kind of love that's truly real.
A guiding light that'll never fade.
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade.
For the love you give it won't let go.
I hope you'll always know.
Chorus
Oh. You're the breath of life in me.
The only one that sets me free.
And you have made my soul complete for all time.
For all time.
Chorus
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything, oh my everything...
Here is a song by 98 degrees - My everything. One of my favs, cos the lyrics really talk to me. This song, dedicated and sung to Jesus, my first love.
The loneliness of nights alone.
I search for strength to carry on.
My every hope has seemed to die.
My eyes had no more tears to cry.
Then like the sun shinned from up above.
You surrounded me with your endless love.
And all the things I couldn't see.
Are now so clear to me.
CHORUS
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything.
Now all my hopes and all my dreams.
Are suddenly reality.
You've opened up my heart to feel.
A kind of love that's truly real.
A guiding light that'll never fade.
There's not a thing in life that I would ever trade.
For the love you give it won't let go.
I hope you'll always know.
Chorus
Oh. You're the breath of life in me.
The only one that sets me free.
And you have made my soul complete for all time.
For all time.
Chorus
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through.
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray.
On bended knee.
That you will always be.
My everything, oh my everything...
Lyrics from www.lyrics.net
Bertrand
Sunday, May 25, 2008
Bertrand's Heart Vault
Hi
You know...
Getting into this frenzy of brokeness and hunger, God is showing me areas of my life that I had locked away in my heart's secret vault. It never dawned on me that such issues would be hindrances to my state of 'brokeness' unto Jesus.
I guess this is a learning process, where God probes and we have to acknowledge our meekness and our weaknesses. It is only now I realise I am still immature in certain areas of my life. My heart is really.... uh.... my emotions drives me crazy. Wake up Berty!
These areas are the pretty sensitive areas of my life... Teaching my head the right thing was not enough. God wants my heart to have a 100% change. Hence, I am getting probed. Like Roland says, God is putting His finger there, digging out the problem.
Well, as the bible says,
"He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds correction gains understanding." - Proverbs 15:32
On a side note, ever noticed how some secular love songs could actually be sung unto the Lord?
Well here is one, an interlude or some sort by 98 degrees, lyrics adapted to sing unto Jesus.
You give me the moon at night,
You give me the stars to light my eyes.
You give me the sun to make just one more dawn,
So another day may come.
You gave me my heart and soul.
You'll be there to catch me when I fall.
When you'll ask me what I'll give to you,
Lord, I'll give it all...
:D
Bertrando Bertiando Berty Bert-Bert Bertrand
You know...
Getting into this frenzy of brokeness and hunger, God is showing me areas of my life that I had locked away in my heart's secret vault. It never dawned on me that such issues would be hindrances to my state of 'brokeness' unto Jesus.
I guess this is a learning process, where God probes and we have to acknowledge our meekness and our weaknesses. It is only now I realise I am still immature in certain areas of my life. My heart is really.... uh.... my emotions drives me crazy. Wake up Berty!
These areas are the pretty sensitive areas of my life... Teaching my head the right thing was not enough. God wants my heart to have a 100% change. Hence, I am getting probed. Like Roland says, God is putting His finger there, digging out the problem.
Well, as the bible says,
"He who ignores discipline despises himself, but whoever heeds correction gains understanding." - Proverbs 15:32
On a side note, ever noticed how some secular love songs could actually be sung unto the Lord?
Well here is one, an interlude or some sort by 98 degrees, lyrics adapted to sing unto Jesus.
You give me the moon at night,
You give me the stars to light my eyes.
You give me the sun to make just one more dawn,
So another day may come.
You gave me my heart and soul.
You'll be there to catch me when I fall.
When you'll ask me what I'll give to you,
Lord, I'll give it all...
:D
Bertrando Bertiando Berty Bert-Bert Bertrand
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
Humility and Progress
Another comment that I hope blesses you.
In this hustle and bustle, ups and downs of Christian life, there is a question that plagues me.
For example, if we prayed about having more patience, how do we know that we are patient enough? This applies to all areas of our life.
Well, I am more or less convinced already that the following answer is a good (biblical) gauge for us Christians to know whether we have made it or not.
I imagine soem people would be going 'huh?' The answer sounds oxymoronic. Haha..
Well let me explain.
Firstly, recall the verse:
Matthew 5: 3
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
Basically, as the verse mentions when we feel hungry/weak/desperate/poor in our spirit, we would continue to seek spiritual nourishment, and the reslu is we would gain the kingdom of heaven.
Likewise, in any area, recognising a hunger and our WEAKNESS in a certain area of our life, we would seek to grow in that area. When we think we have made it, we stop recognising our hunger and also stop recognising that we are still weak in that area and have much to learn.
This contributes to humility. However, do not be over-modest, for that is not good too. We can reconise improvement, but do not recognise ever reaching the ultimate goal in any area.
For when we think we have made it, we have failed.
In this hustle and bustle, ups and downs of Christian life, there is a question that plagues me.
Qn: HOW DO WE KNOW WHEN HAVE WE MADE IT?
For example, if we prayed about having more patience, how do we know that we are patient enough? This applies to all areas of our life.
Well, I am more or less convinced already that the following answer is a good (biblical) gauge for us Christians to know whether we have made it or not.
Ans: WHEN WE THINK AND BELIEVE WE HAD MADE IT, WE WOULD HAVE FAILED.
I imagine soem people would be going 'huh?' The answer sounds oxymoronic. Haha..
Well let me explain.
Firstly, recall the verse:
Matthew 5: 3
"Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven."
Basically, as the verse mentions when we feel hungry/weak/desperate/poor in our spirit, we would continue to seek spiritual nourishment, and the reslu is we would gain the kingdom of heaven.
Likewise, in any area, recognising a hunger and our WEAKNESS in a certain area of our life, we would seek to grow in that area. When we think we have made it, we stop recognising our hunger and also stop recognising that we are still weak in that area and have much to learn.
This contributes to humility. However, do not be over-modest, for that is not good too. We can reconise improvement, but do not recognise ever reaching the ultimate goal in any area.
For when we think we have made it, we have failed.
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Rolling Random Rolls
haha....
Just some random tots.
Church is a real good place for young ones to grow huh. Sometimes I do wonder how I would be today if I didn't stop attending Emmanuel when I was Primary 1.
(haha.... I was 'born' into the church too... Not many ppl know this... Well, but for 10 years I was in the wilderness)
I concluded that I really wouldn't know. I have NO CLUE WHATSOEVER how I would have turned out. Better I guess?
However what shapes me now is partially due to my childhood trauma as the perpetual reject.
How God has pulled me out of my miry clay is A MIRACLE. I still remember how one declared to his friends his disdain and dislike for me, how another just declared not liking my face to my peers and to me as well... Pui! That was bad. Could feel the slight pinch just thinking about the past. Well, I think the reason why those happened was in part due to my character then anyway.
Well, God surely has changed me. God is definitely one who can change lives. Serious.
I see popular secondary school teens being surrounded by loving friends in church who loves them for no matter who they are. Wow. I should have heeded the still voice bugging me to go back to church all those years earlier. Anyway, I think teens should not take their friends for granted. Each and everyone of your friends, besties, pals, buddies, etc. are all treasures, pearls, diamonds, rubies, blessings from our Daddy God to you. God knows the importance of fellowship!
Well, a lil more of myself to anyone who reads this. (I wonder who reads anyway? haha...) I do hope my lil entries somehow encourages you in Christian faith.
I remember a verse God taught me after all those months of praying to God to teach me and help me make friends.
Proverbs 22:11
He who loves a pure heart and whose speech is gracious will have the king for his friend.
Yup well... speaks for itself doesn't it? I am still learning to live out this verse.
After teaching me to make friends, God also taught me how to interact with girls. (Okay... let me emphasize on INTERACT... Interact meaning talking and making friends and not hitting on or anything like that... haha... Just to get that part clear.) God is a good God. I was so worried that due to my lack of rapport with girls would mean I would not be able to go to Commissioning Ball with a date! Well.. Yay... I got a date in the end!!! Learnt a lot along the way too on how to be like around girls. Well... I am still learning and seriously am no pro at it. (Which reminds me... some guys actually have mastered the 'ART OF GETTING A GIRL' so girls do get to know a guy well first before entering a relationship with him. Thats advice from 'kor-kor bert'.)
Well... yar... haha... Yes you can pray about anything to Daddy God. Just make sure you do it with the right mindset and heart.
Bertrand
Just some random tots.
Church is a real good place for young ones to grow huh. Sometimes I do wonder how I would be today if I didn't stop attending Emmanuel when I was Primary 1.
(haha.... I was 'born' into the church too... Not many ppl know this... Well, but for 10 years I was in the wilderness)
I concluded that I really wouldn't know. I have NO CLUE WHATSOEVER how I would have turned out. Better I guess?
However what shapes me now is partially due to my childhood trauma as the perpetual reject.
How God has pulled me out of my miry clay is A MIRACLE. I still remember how one declared to his friends his disdain and dislike for me, how another just declared not liking my face to my peers and to me as well... Pui! That was bad. Could feel the slight pinch just thinking about the past. Well, I think the reason why those happened was in part due to my character then anyway.
Well, God surely has changed me. God is definitely one who can change lives. Serious.
I see popular secondary school teens being surrounded by loving friends in church who loves them for no matter who they are. Wow. I should have heeded the still voice bugging me to go back to church all those years earlier. Anyway, I think teens should not take their friends for granted. Each and everyone of your friends, besties, pals, buddies, etc. are all treasures, pearls, diamonds, rubies, blessings from our Daddy God to you. God knows the importance of fellowship!
Well, a lil more of myself to anyone who reads this. (I wonder who reads anyway? haha...) I do hope my lil entries somehow encourages you in Christian faith.
I remember a verse God taught me after all those months of praying to God to teach me and help me make friends.
Proverbs 22:11
He who loves a pure heart and whose speech is gracious will have the king for his friend.
Yup well... speaks for itself doesn't it? I am still learning to live out this verse.
After teaching me to make friends, God also taught me how to interact with girls. (Okay... let me emphasize on INTERACT... Interact meaning talking and making friends and not hitting on or anything like that... haha... Just to get that part clear.) God is a good God. I was so worried that due to my lack of rapport with girls would mean I would not be able to go to Commissioning Ball with a date! Well.. Yay... I got a date in the end!!! Learnt a lot along the way too on how to be like around girls. Well... I am still learning and seriously am no pro at it. (Which reminds me... some guys actually have mastered the 'ART OF GETTING A GIRL' so girls do get to know a guy well first before entering a relationship with him. Thats advice from 'kor-kor bert'.)
Well... yar... haha... Yes you can pray about anything to Daddy God. Just make sure you do it with the right mindset and heart.
Bertrand
Friday, May 2, 2008
The future
Lately I've been stressing over how am I gonna provide for myself and my family in future.
Also, I have been pretty stressed over living up to the Siow family line's illustrious careers and successes. Wonder if any other guy out there feels the same?
You know when you are young all these do not actually bug you. Now, they do. Probably it is the growing up process.
Well, I dunno how well I'll do in future and I dunno how financially abundant and stable I would be, but one thing I do know is, I want a happy family.
Poor families can be complete and happy
Rich families can be dysfunctional and in dispair.
Money does not equal happiness.
(P.S. I do not just say this hypotectically. I know families that fit into the above two categories.)
I guess, bringing up a joyful, loving, Godly family is what I really want. I trust God to provide for me my internship, my future occupation, my future finances. In God I put my trust.
Hebrews 13: 5.
yes you found the secret message.. hahahahhahahahaha
Also, I have been pretty stressed over living up to the Siow family line's illustrious careers and successes. Wonder if any other guy out there feels the same?
You know when you are young all these do not actually bug you. Now, they do. Probably it is the growing up process.
Well, I dunno how well I'll do in future and I dunno how financially abundant and stable I would be, but one thing I do know is, I want a happy family.
Poor families can be complete and happy
Rich families can be dysfunctional and in dispair.
Money does not equal happiness.
(P.S. I do not just say this hypotectically. I know families that fit into the above two categories.)
I guess, bringing up a joyful, loving, Godly family is what I really want. I trust God to provide for me my internship, my future occupation, my future finances. In God I put my trust.
Hebrews 13: 5.
yes you found the secret message.. hahahahhahahahaha
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Peace like a river
Whup!
Think I finally understand a lil.
You know how everytime something does not seem to go well (or even if it does go well), God wants you to learn something.
For my current predicament, I guess God does not want me to take blessings for granted. Only realised at 1am, that I am not making a concious effort to drive myself to serve God with whatever He has blessed me with.
It is not like I am not serving, however, to you readers out there, whatever you are blessed with does not just include your talents. It includes everything from your friends, your material goods, your influence, etc. Sometimes, we tend to become so used to them that we forget who is the creator and provider of ALL things.
Let's be good stewards of all things. Big and small. We should not steal from God. He gave it to us. It is for a reason.
Think I finally understand a lil.
You know how everytime something does not seem to go well (or even if it does go well), God wants you to learn something.
For my current predicament, I guess God does not want me to take blessings for granted. Only realised at 1am, that I am not making a concious effort to drive myself to serve God with whatever He has blessed me with.
It is not like I am not serving, however, to you readers out there, whatever you are blessed with does not just include your talents. It includes everything from your friends, your material goods, your influence, etc. Sometimes, we tend to become so used to them that we forget who is the creator and provider of ALL things.
Let's be good stewards of all things. Big and small. We should not steal from God. He gave it to us. It is for a reason.
Friday, April 25, 2008
"It ain't just a dance, its a lifestyle"
Woohoo...
"It ain't just a dance, its a lifestyle" - that old retired motto.
The thought exiting from the bboy realm quietly as I age was on my mind in the recent months. Well, as God so had it, there is a twist in my ministry and now I gotta get my skills up to par again. Woot! To serve!
Lord, Whatever it is, Never let me go, Never let me forget it is you who gave me this gift and opportunity and that you are the one who is in control of it all.
"It ain't just a dance, its a lifestyle" - that old retired motto.
The thought exiting from the bboy realm quietly as I age was on my mind in the recent months. Well, as God so had it, there is a twist in my ministry and now I gotta get my skills up to par again. Woot! To serve!
Lord, Whatever it is, Never let me go, Never let me forget it is you who gave me this gift and opportunity and that you are the one who is in control of it all.
haha... I think in a few years I will be a lil old to be called b-boy? B-man? B-uncle?
Monday, March 24, 2008
errr...
A leopard cannot change its spots? Nah... Bible never said so. Change occurs when u r willing to be changed by God. Still, no matter how hard I try, guess some things just don't change so quickly. I really dread the unspoken comparisons. I always asked you Lord, why like that?
Still. It is through weakness that God can work.
I guess its probably easier for the weak to learn how to depend on God than the strong? I dunno. I do know bad memories and experiences have life lessons to learn.
FIGHT IT BERTRAND!!! THIS IS WAR.
Still. It is through weakness that God can work.
I guess its probably easier for the weak to learn how to depend on God than the strong? I dunno. I do know bad memories and experiences have life lessons to learn.
FIGHT IT BERTRAND!!! THIS IS WAR.
Friday, March 21, 2008
Everyone's different, everyone's unique, a precious lil treat.
Everyone's different, Everyone's unique, A precious little treat.
You know... God is so amazingHe created everyone so differently. No too people are the same. Not just in looks, but all differ in character as well.
Well...
However, I guess there are some people who will be your class 'aliens' or your cliques' 'ewww...'
You know... like hello.... I dun like hanging out with them! haha *you're probably thinking of someone like that now*
Well perhaps lets all change our perspective, see them as God's children. Love them. Yes It isn't easy. But... Imagine u were in their shoes. How would you feel?
Evenagelism is through love for God and love for God's people.
Let us all love today. Shine the light of Christ even aound those you would like to avoid. Make someone's world a little brighter by being a light.
Bertrand
P.S. I don't preach on my blog all the time haha.
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
God is always good
Sometimes, things go wrong. But, God allowed that... Why?
We have to learn from mistakes. Instead of indulging in self-pity, you can start to correcting your flaws and weaknesses.
Thank you for your revelation God. I'll change.
Bertrand
We have to learn from mistakes. Instead of indulging in self-pity, you can start to correcting your flaws and weaknesses.
Thank you for your revelation God. I'll change.
Bertrand
Tuesday, March 18, 2008
Rumbleroad
The flesh and spirit war is always evident, especially when u wanna stand up for God.
God I pray.. Help me.
Arrgh
Okay... I think I should blog my blessings more often.
Else you guys will think I am emo.
K... God is always so good, so soveriegn. I did well for one test, but not so good in another. I thank God for His blessings, and also still He leaves me the test results as a reminder, that I still need to be humble and study hard, and not take His blessings for granted!!! Whoop!
Bertrand
God I pray.. Help me.
Arrgh
Okay... I think I should blog my blessings more often.
Else you guys will think I am emo.
K... God is always so good, so soveriegn. I did well for one test, but not so good in another. I thank God for His blessings, and also still He leaves me the test results as a reminder, that I still need to be humble and study hard, and not take His blessings for granted!!! Whoop!
Bertrand
Wednesday, March 12, 2008
Reflection
I had just started chatting to God. (or sometimes I think I'm a soliloquy, Hey, but I know God listens and answers me in His own way!)
I realised.
Just how much obedience Jesus had.
We all know Jesus died for us, because of His immense love for mankind.
Well... Before just before Jesus died...
"30When he had received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. " John 19: 30
Jesus had given up his spirit.
Jesus was obedient in heart and flesh to die for our sins, and was also obedient to give God his Spirit.
Question: Are we obedient in both flesh (our actions) and our heart (our attitudes) and our spirit (our life --> our direction, our purpose for living)
Sometimes we may lack one of these. Obedience in one aspect does not cover for the obedience in another aspect. We need obedience in flesh, heart and spirit.
Bertrand
I realised.
Just how much obedience Jesus had.
We all know Jesus died for us, because of His immense love for mankind.
Well... Before just before Jesus died...
"30When he had received the drink, Jesus said, "It is finished." With that, he bowed his head and gave up his spirit. " John 19: 30
Jesus had given up his spirit.
Jesus was obedient in heart and flesh to die for our sins, and was also obedient to give God his Spirit.
Question: Are we obedient in both flesh (our actions) and our heart (our attitudes) and our spirit (our life --> our direction, our purpose for living)
Sometimes we may lack one of these. Obedience in one aspect does not cover for the obedience in another aspect. We need obedience in flesh, heart and spirit.
Bertrand
Friday, February 29, 2008
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Where your heart is... there your treasure will be
I was just on the bus home, reflecting. Finally realising how off I was. My heart has been seeking other things. I have been chasing after school issues, relationship and friend issues, computer game issues, etc. Finally, a stark realisation came upon me... How long has it been? When was the last time since my heart was focused on seeking God alone and not my own selfish interests? I know, roughly, during the times where my focus was right and I was constantly correcting my life's focus, God made His miracles and I was probably the most 'productive' and grew the most then. I remember my 1st Semester in school was the best time, especially after being fired up by the 2 Karen trips. What happened? That did. Now I say I recovered, but am I still in its wake? Lord, aren't I out yet? Or is it harder than it seems?
Well... Thank you Lord always, for being there for me. The sweetness of feeling close to you, the lingering in your presence... Lord I just want you. I dunno what my future holds. I trust you and I just wanna love you now. Correct my heart where it errs. Mercy, I pray and I know you care.
Well... Thank you Lord always, for being there for me. The sweetness of feeling close to you, the lingering in your presence... Lord I just want you. I dunno what my future holds. I trust you and I just wanna love you now. Correct my heart where it errs. Mercy, I pray and I know you care.
Sunday, February 17, 2008
A brief look at the past.
I had a chance to look at the past yesterday. Leaves me wondering was I closer to God before? Was I more on fire before? Or am I a better Christian today? Never imagined how God would allow me to have a scar such as that... I used to idealised having a clean spotless slate. However, I know God only has plans that are for good for me. Well... I can gladly say I am finally rid of all physical remembrance of the past and ready to live without being bothered by it anymore.
Oleh!!
Bertrand
Oleh!!
Bertrand
Saturday, February 16, 2008
Wounded Soldier
Haha...
War is raging... Gotta admit I've been hurt by the attacks... I'm picking up again... slowly but surely... The war has already been won by Jesus. This victory is already mine to claim.
Looking back... I see my wounds and blows dealt unto me by the enemy... that leaves to constantly think... So how many wounds have I inflicted on the enemy?
Bertrand
War is raging... Gotta admit I've been hurt by the attacks... I'm picking up again... slowly but surely... The war has already been won by Jesus. This victory is already mine to claim.
Looking back... I see my wounds and blows dealt unto me by the enemy... that leaves to constantly think... So how many wounds have I inflicted on the enemy?
Bertrand
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Lord, My Everything
You are my everything.
Nothing your love won't bring.
My life is yours alone.
The only love I've ever known.
Your spirit pulls me through,
When nothing else will do.
Every night I pray,
On bended knee,
That you will always be,
My everything.
Thank you Lord for loving me and always being there for me.
Valentines day is tomorrow...
No matter how others may see it, I know the true lover has never left me and always celebrates with me... Always.
Thursday, January 31, 2008
Use me, O Lord.
Have you ever prayed that prayer? God will use you, most likely in a way that you cannot imagine.
"Do you love me?", Jesus asked. "Then love my sheep."
May all learn to love UNCONDITIONALLY. Seriously.
When the test comes, will you fight or run?
I prayed for God to use me.
I prayed to God to teach me to love.
I prayed to God to do something amazing through me.
I prayed for God to build my faith.
Every past step in life, is to prepare you for the very next step.
Whatever you do, do it such that you never need to look back and think that you could have done better for God's Kingdom.
God, I trust you. I trust you. I trust you. Only you.
Awed yet Bewildered.
Bertrand
"Do you love me?", Jesus asked. "Then love my sheep."
May all learn to love UNCONDITIONALLY. Seriously.
When the test comes, will you fight or run?
I prayed for God to use me.
I prayed to God to teach me to love.
I prayed to God to do something amazing through me.
I prayed for God to build my faith.
Every past step in life, is to prepare you for the very next step.
Whatever you do, do it such that you never need to look back and think that you could have done better for God's Kingdom.
God, I trust you. I trust you. I trust you. Only you.
Awed yet Bewildered.
Bertrand
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
Psalm 62
1 My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
3 How long will you assault a man?
Would all of you throw him down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
4 They fully intend to topple him
from his lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse. Selah
5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge. Selah
9 Lowborn men are but a breath,
the highborn are but a lie;
if weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
together they are only a breath.
10 Do not trust in extortion
or take pride in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
do not set your heart on them.
11 One thing God has spoken,
two things have I heard:
that you, O God, are strong,
12 and that you, O Lord, are loving.
Surely you will reward each person
according to what he has done.
1 My soul finds rest in God alone;
my salvation comes from him.
2 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.
3 How long will you assault a man?
Would all of you throw him down—
this leaning wall, this tottering fence?
4 They fully intend to topple him
from his lofty place;
they take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,
but in their hearts they curse. Selah
5 Find rest, O my soul, in God alone;
my hope comes from him.
6 He alone is my rock and my salvation;
he is my fortress, I will not be shaken.
7 My salvation and my honor depend on God;
he is my mighty rock, my refuge.
8 Trust in him at all times, O people;
pour out your hearts to him,
for God is our refuge. Selah
9 Lowborn men are but a breath,
the highborn are but a lie;
if weighed on a balance, they are nothing;
together they are only a breath.
10 Do not trust in extortion
or take pride in stolen goods;
though your riches increase,
do not set your heart on them.
11 One thing God has spoken,
two things have I heard:
that you, O God, are strong,
12 and that you, O Lord, are loving.
Surely you will reward each person
according to what he has done.
Monday, January 28, 2008
God is great always.
As the deer panteth for the water,
So my soul longs after thee.
You alone are my hearts desire and I long
To worship you.
You alone are my strength my shield.
To you alone may my spirit yield.
You alone are my hearts desire
And I long to worship you.
Amen.
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
Taste and see that the Lord is good.
I woke up just a while ago. Flashes of memory came back from when I just got saved at 17.
Firstly, I was just saved when I was by myself, in my room. Feeling depressed and heartbroken and ya kinda felt God said it was time to go to church. Like... Why did I know it was God? dunno... Guess God had to break me down to show He was real.
Secondly, I thank God for blessing me with Hosea as my Cell leader when I was still a young Christian. Haha... thinking about that... I became a nerd trying to learn the hiphop bboy culture.
Still remember how my JC friends laughed at me when I told them I got saved and was learning to breakdance. Hmmm... First sign of persecution? Haha... Well somehow I am a mix between both now...
Thirdly, God showed me that He does amazing things.
"27But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29so that no one may boast before him." - 1 Corinthians 1
I was told in secondary school that I would never be a leader because I was too indecisive. I was actually only promoted to 1SG in NCC through the earlier batch of spec course by mistake. I was supposed to go for the later batch... which meant that I was not good enough. Why did that happen? God must have been watching me all along.
But lo and behold, I became a leader in the SAF. Tears to my eyes... I never would have imagined that would be possible. Personally, I know I could have done better in many areas while training (See la... Why didn't you go church regularly then?), God helped me pull through so many times. Finally, as my platoon sang with all gusto..."We come from many places, All across the land..." We marched into the parade square singing. As my parents put my rank on my shoulder. I felt God was telling me now the weak would shame the strong.
I do not want to gloat, but out of my NCC bunch... I only knew that there were only 2 unexpected people who became officers. When I knew that... I still can feel that God was there saying that he would choose the weak, not the strong.
If you think you are strong and capable, how would God bring glory to Himself through you?
If you know you are weak and need God to accomplish great things, truly success would bring glory to Him alone, not you.
Commisioning Ball was another breakthrough too... haha... but I'll tell u all about that another day... haha...
Firstly, I was just saved when I was by myself, in my room. Feeling depressed and heartbroken and ya kinda felt God said it was time to go to church. Like... Why did I know it was God? dunno... Guess God had to break me down to show He was real.
Secondly, I thank God for blessing me with Hosea as my Cell leader when I was still a young Christian. Haha... thinking about that... I became a nerd trying to learn the hiphop bboy culture.
Still remember how my JC friends laughed at me when I told them I got saved and was learning to breakdance. Hmmm... First sign of persecution? Haha... Well somehow I am a mix between both now...
Thirdly, God showed me that He does amazing things.
"27But God chose the foolish things of the world to shame the wise; God chose the weak things of the world to shame the strong. 28He chose the lowly things of this world and the despised things—and the things that are not—to nullify the things that are, 29so that no one may boast before him." - 1 Corinthians 1
I was told in secondary school that I would never be a leader because I was too indecisive. I was actually only promoted to 1SG in NCC through the earlier batch of spec course by mistake. I was supposed to go for the later batch... which meant that I was not good enough. Why did that happen? God must have been watching me all along.
But lo and behold, I became a leader in the SAF. Tears to my eyes... I never would have imagined that would be possible. Personally, I know I could have done better in many areas while training (See la... Why didn't you go church regularly then?), God helped me pull through so many times. Finally, as my platoon sang with all gusto..."We come from many places, All across the land..." We marched into the parade square singing. As my parents put my rank on my shoulder. I felt God was telling me now the weak would shame the strong.
I do not want to gloat, but out of my NCC bunch... I only knew that there were only 2 unexpected people who became officers. When I knew that... I still can feel that God was there saying that he would choose the weak, not the strong.
If you think you are strong and capable, how would God bring glory to Himself through you?
If you know you are weak and need God to accomplish great things, truly success would bring glory to Him alone, not you.
Commisioning Ball was another breakthrough too... haha... but I'll tell u all about that another day... haha...
Monday, January 21, 2008
No turning back this time.
Ignite was the bomb.
I now know the direction to go.
Lord give me strength and guidance.
3 sermons in one day. God spoke.
Truly always.
M is the word.
Btw,
One thing I MUST constantly remind myself (and you too):
God is my King, my Lord and I serve Him, but what I CANNOT forget is that He desires a relationship with me a whole very very very much!
Never neglect your relationship with God for ministry/service.
Always give God and me, just time to ourselves. :D
Bertrand
I now know the direction to go.
Lord give me strength and guidance.
3 sermons in one day. God spoke.
Truly always.
M is the word.
Btw,
One thing I MUST constantly remind myself (and you too):
God is my King, my Lord and I serve Him, but what I CANNOT forget is that He desires a relationship with me a whole very very very much!
Never neglect your relationship with God for ministry/service.
Always give God and me, just time to ourselves. :D
Bertrand
Friday, January 18, 2008
Relentless and Restless
I can't explain it. I feel a deep sense of dissatisfaction constantly. Nothing will sooth it... Like nothing... Wonder why, it comes, it goes. Think God wants me to learn to work under such crazy emotions.
A pure heart,
That's what I long for.
A heart that follows hard after Thee.
A heart that hides Your Word,
So that sin will not come in.
A heart that's undivided
But one You rule and reign.
A heart that beats compassion.
That pleases You my Lord.
A sweet aroma of worship.
That rises to Your throne.
It ain't easy to seek a pure heart. Outward persecution may sometimes be easier than the inner persecution.
Life lessons in session!
Challenges are meant to be conquered.
Bertrand.
Love like God does. Live like God(Jesus) died for us.
Thursday, January 17, 2008
Truely God, always
God taught me something today. It is truely different to know something and to experience something.
Felt God was speaking to me through life events that only He can be truely and always faithful.
Nothing else, can ever take His place...
Loving others would make us vulnerable. It is not a bad thing. God commanded us to love others like He loved us, unconditionally. The phrase 'love hurts', redefined huh?
Btw, I am NOT referring to bgr, in case anyone was wondering... haha.
Bertrand
Felt God was speaking to me through life events that only He can be truely and always faithful.
Nothing else, can ever take His place...
Loving others would make us vulnerable. It is not a bad thing. God commanded us to love others like He loved us, unconditionally. The phrase 'love hurts', redefined huh?
Btw, I am NOT referring to bgr, in case anyone was wondering... haha.
Bertrand
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
Pretty boys? Handsome girls? UGLY???
haa...
DISCLAIMER: I am in no way putting down anybody. I am refering to society as a whole. Hopefully the one reading this post would see my point and learn from it? Its a life perspective/lesson I am still learning from life that I would like to share with you all.
One of the driving factors of society seems to be exterior beauty. Every kid growing up seems to be looking for a cute guy or pretty girl to get attached too. Notice the adjectives all refer to the exterior? When a person annouces he/she is attached, one of the first few questions would be: "Pretty or not?" or "Is he handsome?" Think about it. haha.
Well... Technically the males are often stereotyped as superficial, who only deem girls 'pretty' enough as qualified to be their girlfriends/future spouse.
Well... no offence to girls, I have heard much comments like that, many from girls.
Honestly, although I do believe girls in general do not rank attractiveness as important as boys in general... err... think of the HOTTEST guy (plainly by looks) around your certain group of friends and see how many girls like him/ swoon over him/ complement him/ choose him first when you need a partner for a project... (this kinda happens for vice versa for the HOTTEST girl as well.)
OKOK... no offence huh... I am just stating an observation. I do know that there truly are many guys and girls who are not superficial. A good practice is to constantly ask yourself your motive for avoiding/hanging out with a certain person. Is it mainly because that person is attractive? a hah... gotcha???
Well... I was grew up pretty unattractive as a teen. I do acknowledge I somehow look better now compared to my past.. I am not trying to say I am hot and hunky and handsome now, but if you know me, I can show you my photos. Be amazed. haha.... Maybe its braces, army, puberty, but I know God planned it for His purposes. Still, I can tell the difference on how society treats me already... Although that is not the only factor, I know it plays a part somewhat.
Why did God make some people better looking than others?
"16From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work." - Ephesians 4:16
Well... Everone has their own godly work cut out for them to do. They have their own people group they can reach out to. Very talented and popular people will not be able to reach out to everybody. Seemingly less 'attractive' or less 'popular' people will have their own gang and thus that is a harvest field for them.
Popular people tend to be overglorified by society. Even in Christian circles. God views everyone the same. We are all equal in His sight and no one is better than the other.
Anyone, popular or not, has their own godly work cut out for them and should be given chances to develop and grow and the church is to be built by the work of ALL members of the body of Christ. This is true in evangelism and ministry.
DISCLAIMER: I am in no way putting down anybody. I am refering to society as a whole. Hopefully the one reading this post would see my point and learn from it? Its a life perspective/lesson I am still learning from life that I would like to share with you all.
One of the driving factors of society seems to be exterior beauty. Every kid growing up seems to be looking for a cute guy or pretty girl to get attached too. Notice the adjectives all refer to the exterior? When a person annouces he/she is attached, one of the first few questions would be: "Pretty or not?" or "Is he handsome?" Think about it. haha.
Well... Technically the males are often stereotyped as superficial, who only deem girls 'pretty' enough as qualified to be their girlfriends/future spouse.
Well... no offence to girls, I have heard much comments like that, many from girls.
Honestly, although I do believe girls in general do not rank attractiveness as important as boys in general... err... think of the HOTTEST guy (plainly by looks) around your certain group of friends and see how many girls like him/ swoon over him/ complement him/ choose him first when you need a partner for a project... (this kinda happens for vice versa for the HOTTEST girl as well.)
OKOK... no offence huh... I am just stating an observation. I do know that there truly are many guys and girls who are not superficial. A good practice is to constantly ask yourself your motive for avoiding/hanging out with a certain person. Is it mainly because that person is attractive? a hah... gotcha???
Well... I was grew up pretty unattractive as a teen. I do acknowledge I somehow look better now compared to my past.. I am not trying to say I am hot and hunky and handsome now, but if you know me, I can show you my photos. Be amazed. haha.... Maybe its braces, army, puberty, but I know God planned it for His purposes. Still, I can tell the difference on how society treats me already... Although that is not the only factor, I know it plays a part somewhat.
Why did God make some people better looking than others?
"16From him the whole body, joined and held together by every supporting ligament, grows and builds itself up in love, as each part does its work." - Ephesians 4:16
Well... Everone has their own godly work cut out for them to do. They have their own people group they can reach out to. Very talented and popular people will not be able to reach out to everybody. Seemingly less 'attractive' or less 'popular' people will have their own gang and thus that is a harvest field for them.
Popular people tend to be overglorified by society. Even in Christian circles. God views everyone the same. We are all equal in His sight and no one is better than the other.
Anyone, popular or not, has their own godly work cut out for them and should be given chances to develop and grow and the church is to be built by the work of ALL members of the body of Christ. This is true in evangelism and ministry.
Monday, January 14, 2008
No matter how hard, no matter how incompetent, learn!!!
The Heidi Baker Conference ended yesterday night. It was a blast. Her testimonies are amazing...
Well, I was reminded of lessons God had brought along my life's way.
As an officer, I was expected to be able to do anything I was told to handle. It did not help at all that I would most likely be a greenhorn in anything I do and my track record then was much less than illustrious. (Thank God, now its a lil bit better. Amen! Still lots & lots & lots to improve though.)
Haha... through all the stress and dirty work, I learnt to focus on the fact that everything I do, I must do it for Jesus.
Also, in whatever you have to do, learning to learn is more important than being taught. Self-learning was of utmost imporatance in situations when you are expected to perform but you sadly hardly know what to do. Learning on the job was often the case. Help is much appreciated (and desired), but in everything you do, one must learn to do it independently if the situation deems it necessary.
Not that a one-man-show is a good thing (of course it is bad if you are to work with a team), but it is important to know how to run the show by yourself when you are really alone.
Yup... More of that in future!
Bertrand
Well, I was reminded of lessons God had brought along my life's way.
As an officer, I was expected to be able to do anything I was told to handle. It did not help at all that I would most likely be a greenhorn in anything I do and my track record then was much less than illustrious. (Thank God, now its a lil bit better. Amen! Still lots & lots & lots to improve though.)
Haha... through all the stress and dirty work, I learnt to focus on the fact that everything I do, I must do it for Jesus.
Also, in whatever you have to do, learning to learn is more important than being taught. Self-learning was of utmost imporatance in situations when you are expected to perform but you sadly hardly know what to do. Learning on the job was often the case. Help is much appreciated (and desired), but in everything you do, one must learn to do it independently if the situation deems it necessary.
Not that a one-man-show is a good thing (of course it is bad if you are to work with a team), but it is important to know how to run the show by yourself when you are really alone.
Yup... More of that in future!
Bertrand
Sunday, January 13, 2008
The Beautitudes
Haha.. This blog will get a facelift soon. Yup and I plan to start advertising about my blog soon. I'm not waiting for the facelift anymore.
Well, today was Heidi Baker's conference at the expo. WOW. Her testimonies are amazing. Really speaks sincerely from her heart on what a pure heart, unconditional love incarnated, mercy and grace is. WOW..
Well, actually, God spoke to me more than that. I had to look beyond my circumstances and look towards the promised land and really stop complaining and being discouraged about what I still do not possess.
Think about this. God promised the Israelites who escaped from Egypt their promised land. Even though God provided them miracles and evidences of his hand upon them (e.g. the parting of the sea, the pillar of fire, manna from heaven, etc.), they still complained on what they lacked, their promised land!
So... I've got to look ahead for the prize. My spiritual walk might not always seem victorious, but I do know He promised victory. When and where and how? All in His plan.
People might judge me and my credibility according to the world's superficial elitist standards, but I know God does not.
Stay faithful in everything you do Bertrand!!!
Woot!
Bertrand
Well, today was Heidi Baker's conference at the expo. WOW. Her testimonies are amazing. Really speaks sincerely from her heart on what a pure heart, unconditional love incarnated, mercy and grace is. WOW..
Well, actually, God spoke to me more than that. I had to look beyond my circumstances and look towards the promised land and really stop complaining and being discouraged about what I still do not possess.
Think about this. God promised the Israelites who escaped from Egypt their promised land. Even though God provided them miracles and evidences of his hand upon them (e.g. the parting of the sea, the pillar of fire, manna from heaven, etc.), they still complained on what they lacked, their promised land!
So... I've got to look ahead for the prize. My spiritual walk might not always seem victorious, but I do know He promised victory. When and where and how? All in His plan.
People might judge me and my credibility according to the world's superficial elitist standards, but I know God does not.
Stay faithful in everything you do Bertrand!!!
Woot!
Bertrand
Saturday, January 12, 2008
Discoveries...
I live in a dying generation... When I entered uni then I could see how common the sex thing has become. Like what happened to treasured female chastity and the scaredness of marriage? Ans: satan happened. Duh.
Hah.. oh well... it was predicted in the bible anyway... yo so check this verse out.
2 Timonthy 3: 1-9
1But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days.
Hmm well terrible enough. haha. But it'll get worse will it not?
2People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, 4treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— 5having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.
v2 to v4 kinda actually refer to the men, as you will see why as you read on. 'lovers of pleasure' - guys nowadays seek the next time they can do it with a girl (whether it is their gf or not, but that is not impt. They shouldn't even be doin it. Bleah. So says who? So says my God.)
v5 is the bomb. Refers to some act-like-christians christians. They might go to church, attend cell group, tell others they are christian but they blatantly do not live like one nor do they bother to find out how to live like one. Yup so they deny and lack the power of God in their lives.
6They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, 7always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth.
Well these men gain control of the weak-willed women! (if you think this is an achievement you need help.) So these sinful men can gain control of women who are sinful and are easily swayed by their evil desires. Kinda explains why they easily fall prey to the sweet-nonsense of guys just trying to bed them. Worse, some women are just waiting for any-other guy to wisk them to bed. (Get saved, girl!)
They probably know that such actions and attitudes are wrong as v7 puts it, but they do not acknowledge that they are guilty as well. Well, they probably have many invalid excuses which seems valid to them. (Again, repent!!!)
8Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these men oppose the truth—men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected. 9But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone.
Clear enough. Everyone knows your big boo-boo, no matter how much you try to hide it or how many excuses you can cook up to defend yourself. Actions speak louder than words. So, yes, get saved. True satisfaction comes through Christ only. Glad I found Him, or He found me. Well anyway...
Ciaos.
Hungry again,
Bertrand (maybe I should get a screen name?)
Hah.. oh well... it was predicted in the bible anyway... yo so check this verse out.
2 Timonthy 3: 1-9
1But mark this: There will be terrible times in the last days.
Hmm well terrible enough. haha. But it'll get worse will it not?
2People will be lovers of themselves, lovers of money, boastful, proud, abusive, disobedient to their parents, ungrateful, unholy, 3without love, unforgiving, slanderous, without self-control, brutal, not lovers of the good, 4treacherous, rash, conceited, lovers of pleasure rather than lovers of God— 5having a form of godliness but denying its power. Have nothing to do with them.
v2 to v4 kinda actually refer to the men, as you will see why as you read on. 'lovers of pleasure' - guys nowadays seek the next time they can do it with a girl (whether it is their gf or not, but that is not impt. They shouldn't even be doin it. Bleah. So says who? So says my God.)
v5 is the bomb. Refers to some act-like-christians christians. They might go to church, attend cell group, tell others they are christian but they blatantly do not live like one nor do they bother to find out how to live like one. Yup so they deny and lack the power of God in their lives.
6They are the kind who worm their way into homes and gain control over weak-willed women, who are loaded down with sins and are swayed by all kinds of evil desires, 7always learning but never able to acknowledge the truth.
Well these men gain control of the weak-willed women! (if you think this is an achievement you need help.) So these sinful men can gain control of women who are sinful and are easily swayed by their evil desires. Kinda explains why they easily fall prey to the sweet-nonsense of guys just trying to bed them. Worse, some women are just waiting for any-other guy to wisk them to bed. (Get saved, girl!)
They probably know that such actions and attitudes are wrong as v7 puts it, but they do not acknowledge that they are guilty as well. Well, they probably have many invalid excuses which seems valid to them. (Again, repent!!!)
8Just as Jannes and Jambres opposed Moses, so also these men oppose the truth—men of depraved minds, who, as far as the faith is concerned, are rejected. 9But they will not get very far because, as in the case of those men, their folly will be clear to everyone.
Clear enough. Everyone knows your big boo-boo, no matter how much you try to hide it or how many excuses you can cook up to defend yourself. Actions speak louder than words. So, yes, get saved. True satisfaction comes through Christ only. Glad I found Him, or He found me. Well anyway...
Ciaos.
Hungry again,
Bertrand (maybe I should get a screen name?)
Friday, January 11, 2008
Bleachy
Haha.. I'm trying my utmost best to blog... Should just add ma ramblings huh... Only fear later I offend some people (which I might) or people might think why do I complain so much? Haha...
I might seemingly complain but I won't act on them... I will stand upon God's word and be faithful! Hah!
So many people have blogs huh.. wonder how long would they take to discover me.
Oh well... yeah ramble!
Movies to watch!
Watching my cell grow!
Building my character!
Growing closer to God!
Studies to begin!
Btw, in case people think I'm just church-and-study.. okay la, 50-75% right lor.
I do de-stressing stuff too... Though its not always the conventional guy destressing stuff.
I don't really indulge in CS or DOTA, but I do play UT and DOW.
I like to call up my friends. (ya... peace to my buddy and those I call to chat nonsense!)
I am a morning person, but I sleep to destress sometimes.
I am not really into sports, but I do like to do a lil bboyin at times. (Ya... I do not look like I am the breakin type... ya... another whole testimony of God's amazing life changing powers and grace and mercy... which you might here next time. Stay tuned.)
bLeah
Bertrand
I might seemingly complain but I won't act on them... I will stand upon God's word and be faithful! Hah!
So many people have blogs huh.. wonder how long would they take to discover me.
Oh well... yeah ramble!
Movies to watch!
Watching my cell grow!
Building my character!
Growing closer to God!
Studies to begin!
Btw, in case people think I'm just church-and-study.. okay la, 50-75% right lor.
I do de-stressing stuff too... Though its not always the conventional guy destressing stuff.
I don't really indulge in CS or DOTA, but I do play UT and DOW.
I like to call up my friends. (ya... peace to my buddy and those I call to chat nonsense!)
I am a morning person, but I sleep to destress sometimes.
I am not really into sports, but I do like to do a lil bboyin at times. (Ya... I do not look like I am the breakin type... ya... another whole testimony of God's amazing life changing powers and grace and mercy... which you might here next time. Stay tuned.)
bLeah
Bertrand
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