I was just on the bus home, reflecting. Finally realising how off I was. My heart has been seeking other things. I have been chasing after school issues, relationship and friend issues, computer game issues, etc. Finally, a stark realisation came upon me... How long has it been? When was the last time since my heart was focused on seeking God alone and not my own selfish interests? I know, roughly, during the times where my focus was right and I was constantly correcting my life's focus, God made His miracles and I was probably the most 'productive' and grew the most then. I remember my 1st Semester in school was the best time, especially after being fired up by the 2 Karen trips. What happened? That did. Now I say I recovered, but am I still in its wake? Lord, aren't I out yet? Or is it harder than it seems?
Well... Thank you Lord always, for being there for me. The sweetness of feeling close to you, the lingering in your presence... Lord I just want you. I dunno what my future holds. I trust you and I just wanna love you now. Correct my heart where it errs. Mercy, I pray and I know you care.
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